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[Apr. 9th, 2008|12:07 pm] |
i realize now that i judge the success of a relationship on how much fun i can have with a person when we are not doing anything at all.
I have had a good life. i think it takes a strong person to admit that.
When you can look back on any day and pick out the good in it.
or stand in the mirror and find things you like about the way you look.
Life is not easy but that does not mean that it has to suck, each day of your life should not be seen as a battle but more of an adventure, sometimes adventures go bad, ask Indiana jones, but that in the end you made it through and you escaped from Nazis with the holy grail.
Complain if you must, but don't lash out.
Keep your mouth shut, and let your heart do the talking. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 25th, 2008|01:44 am] |
For everyone who has ever used a one of those horrible cliche's like one day you'll look back on this and laugh, or there are plenty of fish in the sea. you really are a crappy friend. No one ever want to hear that even if it is the only thing you can think of to say that will make sense... dont say them think of something funny or original. When did being a good friend turn into "lets see how many useless catch phrases we can memorize".
"there are plenty of fish in the sea". Yeah but you know what none of those fish are the same and once you lose the one you want then it takes a long as time to realize what you want next and obviously it took me this long to figure out that i still dont even know what i want.
God, you have the strangest sense of humor. |
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| LAST NIGHT =AWSOME |
[Mar. 23rd, 2008|01:28 am] |
i would just like to say that i had one hell of a time last night. Nothing like partying with the wife and kids lol.
1.so i quess im some kinda flip cup hustler...
2.chris duda is a D-bag
3.i can really think on my feat when my parents ask me why i went out to my car at 4 AM when i was really just getting home.
"i didnt think my laptop should be out in the cold"
4.so i put my foot down today and said i was done with her... but when i tryed to tell her it was not so easy so im sure ill be floting on the back burner for a while.
5.if i did not have friends at home i think i might actually have to conform to the duche bags at svsu. |
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| Get to the high ground the flood gates have been opened |
[Feb. 27th, 2008|11:21 am] |
With blurred visions and shaking hands Matthew Kapa puts thoughts into print.
In combination with sleep deprivation and almost constant stress, actually knowing that i was nothing more than a convenience for you to use until you walked straight back into the arms that have pushed you down so many times you don't even realize what it feels like to be lifted up,
I strolled into my first class 45 minutes late today and laughed the whole time. I do believe i have officially gone crazy
i was guna ask you to drop me off at heart ache before you drove me to insanity. but its to late for both of those things
but who am i kidding i will wait around all day for you to call, text, or contact me in any way. And then forgive you for whatever you have done even if it was nothing at all. I guess that makes me no better than you. But then why cant i get you out of my head.
Over the past three weeks you were the only thing that i could think about and i was happy.
Now i would be happy just knowing what you wanted so i wouldn't have to play this stupid game anymore.
Why does every girl i have interest in have to keep me a secret. |
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| One hell of a ride |
[Feb. 21st, 2008|03:19 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
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Index of Qualitative Variation... fuck it I'm playin solitaire
now these must have been the thoughts going through my head on Tuesday because i have homework due in 5 hours and i have no idea how to answer the last question. But i digress
The crowded Starbucks gave me an applause as i strummed my final chord, i stood up and walked away and the called my name once more like they did with all the people at open mic night,probably just to make us feel better about ourselves. I walked right over to a familiar face and she smiled then said.
"Whenever you sing and play guitar the music seems to convey every emotion that you have at the time. Where do you find these songs?"
Being rather nonchalant about it i looked up at her and said i don't find them, they find me.
And it seemed that my clever remark had fallen on def ears because, she smiled and said with the grace of a cinder block.
"uhh... what?"
So then i took the straight and narrow path and explained that i wrote them.
she got it
its makes me wonder if speaking about everyday life like its a verse from the never ending poem that is existence really makes a difference?
or if it just makes me look like a emotional prick?
well do to the length of the Kate Moore sized journal entry i expect limited feed back.
one more thing before you zone out. I am in a band called the golightlys check us out www.myspace.com/thegolightlysmi |
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| Into the Gight Goes Another of the Great Ones |
[Feb. 7th, 2008|01:31 am] |
Rest In Peace Mr. Houser
You were always there with a story and a smile.
and even though you always had a one up on me i never minded.
Truly a loss of another one of the Great Ones. |
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| yeah i did one of these |
[Jan. 15th, 2008|09:11 pm] |
1.Did you kiss anyone?
yes
2.Did you smoke?
no
3.Did you have someone to kiss when the clock strikes?
nope
4.Did you lose any friends?
I really hope not but its to soon to tell
5.Did you gain any friends?
yes
6.Did you do something new?
I tried some new things
7.Did anyone important to you die?
no
8.Did you change?
Id like to think I have always been the same but some would probably say I have changed
9.Are you happy with the year over all?
oh its ups and definitely had its downs definitely
10.Whats the best thing that happened to you ?
I wrote my first song and people seem to enjoy it.
11.Did you fall in or out of love?
I fell out
12.Are you happy the years almost over?
um im to late for this one but I feel indifferent.
13.Are you going to change something about yourself next year?
oh I say im guna lose weight but it probably wont happen.
14.Do you think 2008 will be a better year then 2007?
We shall see
16.How many things did you screw up in 2007?
Well I failed a class which killed me
17.Did you go to an amusement park?
nope I worked all summer
18.Did you go to a concert?
Yes I did and awesome one
19.Did you go to any parties?
A few here and there could have been more though
20.Did you go on a summer vacation?
nope I worked
21.Did you get into a fight?
yup
22.Did you leave the country?
OHHH CANADA
23.Did you have a good birthday?
I did have a very good birthday
24.Did anyone in your family get married?
My oldest brother Kyle that was a great day
25.Do you think you grew?
physically yes as a person ALOT
26.Did you dye your hair?
nope
27.Who do you think you were on the phone with the most?
Probably Melissa in the first half after that it is spilt up pretty evenly
28.Did anyone sing to you?
yes and I love when people sing to me
29.Did you sing to anyone?
Lots of people OPEN MIKE NIGHT
30.Did anyone tell you they loved you?
yes
31.Did you ever go to the hospital?
nope
32.What did you drink and eat the most?
lots of water I have no idea probably lots of fast food
33.Did you change your top friends at least 8 times?
Maybe like 4 times
34.Did you change your profile over 10 times?
I don’t know
35.Did you change your default at least 20 times?
nope
36.Did you get a tattoo?
uhmm… what? No, not me, never
37.Did you vote?
no but this year for sure
38.Are you going to make a new years resolution?
40 pound race
2007 In The Beginning
Where did you bring in the New Year?: Three different places
Who were you with?: Melissa
Did you kiss anyone at midnight?: yes
Did you make any resolutions?: maybe
2007 Your Love Life
Did you get anything for Valentine's day?: yes
Did you meet anyone?: no
Did you fall in love?: I was already in it
2007 Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year?: yes
Did any of your friendships end?: once again im not sure but I hope not
Did you dislike anyone?: who doesnt
Did you make any new enemies?: not really
Did you resolve any fights?: maybe
Who was your closest friend?: BRYAN VOGEL
Who did you grow apart from?:
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?: I have no regrets
2007 Your BIRTHDAY!!!
How old did you turn?: 19
Did you have a cake?: yes
What did you do for your birthday?: Celebrated with Melissa
Did you have a party?: I don’t think so
Did you get any presents?: yes
If so what was the best thing you got?: I cant really remeber
2007, All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?: Yeah probably
Did you dye your hair?: no
Did you change your style?: I don’t know maybe
Were you in school?: SVSU
Did you get good grades? Nope and I paid for it
Did you have a job?: landscaping
Did you drive?: all over
Did you own a car? First half was the truck now I still have my intrepid
Did anyone close to you give birth?: my cousins but we are not really that close
Did you move at all?: no
Did you go on any vacations?: Nope I worked
Did you leave the country at all?: CANADA
Would you change anything about yourself now?: maybe
2007, Wrap up
Was 2007 a good year?: It had its ups and it definitely had its downs
Did 2007 bring any new insights?: ALOT
Do you think 2008 will top 2007?: Who knows
Do you have any goals for 2008?: yaeh
if you could relive any moment which would you choose from 2007?:playing my songs in front of like 90 people
2008
1. Will you be looking for a new job? Yes Cedar Point
2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?: We will see what the world brings me
3. New house?: no
4. Do you plan on having a child?: no
5. New Years Resolution? 40 pound race
6. What will you not be doing in '08?: wasting time
7. Any trips planned? Im sure ill go to canada
8. Wedding plans?: nope
9. Major thing on your calendar?: nope
10. What can’t you wait for? To ski again
11. What would you like to see happen different?: I would like to reconnect with old friends
12. What about yourself, will you be changing?: Not really
13. What happened in ‘07 that you didn’t think would ever happen?: I fell out of love
14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?: yeah
15. Will you dress differently in '08 than you did in '07?: maybe
16. Will you start or quit drinking?: nope
17. Will you better your relationship with your family?: not sure
18. Will you do charity work?: I would like to think so
19. Will you be nice to people you don’t know?: always
20. Do you expect '08 to be a good year for you? yes.
21. How much did you change from this time last year till now?: some
22. What will you do different in '08?: hey you already asked this
23. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now? I hope so
24. Major lifestyle changes?: Not really
25. Will you be moving?: no
26. What will you make sure doesn’t happen in '08 that happened in '07?: no longer will I speed
27. What were your New Years Eve plans?: Hung out with the guys at Phil’s house
28. Did you have someone to kiss at midnight?: nope I did not kiss any of the guys at midnight |
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| things i bought on an impulse |
[Jan. 8th, 2008|03:08 am] |
skis
harmonica
144 guitar pics
guitar case
shoes
Harry Potter books (never read)
fuzzy dice for car
CD player for car
Very expensive bracelet for a girl i dated like 3 months if that (lol i blame older brothers for that one)
if you have ever got flowers from me
i cant believe it not butter when i have no bread
I pod protective case (i dont use my IPOD)
hunting knife
candy
Tibet...jk |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 8th, 2008|02:49 am] |
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i believe my wise friend Mr. Vogel said it the best
"all the songs we right seem to be either YaY girls
or
Boo girls"
on another note
what if...?
and those are what will kill me eventually
what could happen
what would it be like
what if i would have woke up early today?
what if i would have tryed a little harder at math?
what if my car would have broke down in Fenton by the YARDEN GARDEN?
what if i would have went to camp?
what if me and Bryan actually get a good band going?
what if i dated her?
what if i didnt impulse buy when im stressed out? (I would not have skis)
what if it was always this warm?
what if the internet didn't exist?
so eventually the "what ifs" will get me but for now they just remain questions with no answers |
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| Gota love this stuff |
[Dec. 23rd, 2007|01:58 am] |
i knew a girl once who forced her craft with flasks full of shit that'd take the paint off a cadillac. i told her once "you're so goddamn vain." she thought this song was about her but it ain't (except for that line.) put a pen to the paper, wrote "moving on." it's been a good amount of time since you been gone and all the same bands still playing the same songs and all the same girls not making the same calls but i keep my chin up, cause you know i fly right. crossed sights make an old flame re-ignite. i could start a forest fire with a match tip. i could reach into a haystack and pull out a sewing kit. i like girls that are sensible, actions not reprehensible. get me a cutie with her nose in a book who's modest about her good looks.
angel, work to get your head straight.
you've been sleeping half a decade.
she'll be marilyn i'll be arthur miller. oh i will be rick and my girl will be ilsa but this time she's not leaving the ground cause somehow we're gonna figure it out. we'll make it work like the night shift, flirt like we're bright kids dropping references to the shit that we're liking. before you know it she'll be wearing my clothes and her voice will be inside of my phone cause you know when i hit the road she'll be missing my x's, my o's, my hugs n' kisses. existing just to sing and dance for the kids but every now and then some bitch will wanna talk shit. though it seems like when i write i've got good technique cause my tongue's got a condo inside of my cheek. i'm renting space for the bitties too cause you know that's how i do. |
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| how goes it |
[Nov. 21st, 2007|12:48 am] |
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so i realized that i do not have a type |
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| yeah dont make fun of me to bad |
[Nov. 16th, 2007|02:02 pm] |
So here are the lyrics to my song
still not sure on what to call it so if you have any ideas let me know
V1
You're asking me to go
but your eyes
are begging me to stay
your walking me to the door
and your asking,asking
for just one more, kiss
your lying with your eyes
and your teasing me with that smile
C
your like my favorite song
always stuck in my head
replayin it over and over again
your life my favorite song
always stuck in my head
replayin it over and over again
v2
its 4 in the morning
its time to go
your falling asleep
and i think you know
if i dont leave now
then ill be here for hours
C
your like my favorite song
always stuck in my head
replayin it over and over again
your like my favorite song
always stuck in my head
replayin it over and over
and over
Again. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 15th, 2007|12:38 am] |
well i have done it as of last week the first song ever written by Matthew Jospeh Kapa was sung in front of a live audience of about 12 (maybe less)
im not sure of the name yet
i think maybe favorite song
or not
also i have a cold and the only three things i can do when i have a cold are sleep, pee and pass gas (well i guess that last one counts as two things)
ill be home the day after thanksgiving |
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[Nov. 7th, 2007|12:22 am] |
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Um I'm guna need the help of like every girl i have ever known for this one lol
I'm in a little pickle
thankfully my pickle was not involved
lol oh goodness im a riot
(not really)
dont be supprised if you are contacted via internet, phone, facebook or myspace messages. |
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| *sigh* |
[Sep. 25th, 2007|03:20 pm] |
And get this she doesn't even eat it with a bun
i know right
why would anyone eat a hot dog like that
bitch took my pop ice and left
*unrelated news*
Well i had way to much time to sit around and think today and i realize that... yeah it still hurts.
Kanye west is way better than 50 cent.
stand up
lift hands
DONE!!! |
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| g r s l k popsicles |
[Sep. 24th, 2007|12:15 am] |
Emma i will be home in two weeks and i want my cds back and i mean it this time *WINK*
Melissa my parents hopefully brought back your greys anatomy DVD so like i said two weeks
Jess let me see you crank dat soulja boy
Im probably goin up to State within the next month
Kyle and Katie holy shit your getting married in like 19 days WOW i cant believe it
The month of November has cost me over $250 in various legal and repair fees (computer)
...
college food is starting to take its toll on my insides but i tastes so good
no no its cool i found something else to do
In unrelated news Canada for thanks giving... Awesome |
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| what a crazy couple of mounths |
[Sep. 12th, 2007|08:27 pm] |
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the good news that is is finally starting to get colder and its about time there is nothing better than a nice cold winter. So long sweet summer
any who... life is finally starting to straiten out. Like the subject line says it had been crazy. there was a couple of false highs and crazy lows but in the end what happened happened and unless i had a time machine there is nothing i cam do about it. Dont get me wrong it was hard to come to that realization but getting a time machine turned out to be a real bitch lol.
No one can say that i didnt try |
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[Aug. 18th, 2007|12:28 pm] |
I may have lost my girlfriend but,
I realized that you are still one of my best friends
So lets do this thing
and never forget it
Pound it
Blow it up
and make it rain
yeah
oh yeah, Sean Dunn has been a really good friend as well as the rest of you guys you know who you are |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 15th, 2007|03:53 pm] |
Yeah Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
please call or keep me busy ill talk your ear off but with every person i tell i can feel the weight being lifted.
586-709-0175 |
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[Aug. 14th, 2007|02:29 am] |
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its hard trying to find the words to say how i feel but i think my dad said it best.
"whenever God is involved everything happens for a reason"
this sucks |
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